I found the end of the internet

I received an inter-office envelope today. I never receive these, so my curiosity was piqued. When I opened it, there was but one sheet of paper enclosed, bearing the message:

It would be a fine idea if you were to refrain from the consumption of candy today.
–The Phantom

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I grinned because I know who the phantom is and he’s quite inspiring. His note helped me refuse a chocolate covered salted caramel today. And when a colleague offered to bribe me with chocolate, I confidently announced that I’d prefer baby carrots.

Today was a pretty good day. I had a lot of lean proteins and a lot of spinach. Of course, I had a poptart and crackers, too.  This blog is about progress, not perfection, so I’ll continue to tell it like it is.

I told it like it is to Jeff tonight. After surfing to the end of the internet, (did you realize there’s a page on tickld that doesn’t have a “next” button??) Anyway, after surfing to the end of the internet, I got angry with myself. Here I had paged through 45 pages of things of little consequence and wasted hours of time. Time that could’ve been spent cleaning, exercising, crafting, painting, or even sleeping. 

Then I shut down the computer and said to hell with it.  Jeff is going to help me block the trouble sites and I’m going to redouble my efforts to be more productive with my time.

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Then I learned…

1. That even though it looks nice, 36°F isn’t quite balmy enough to finish breakfast outside

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2. That the line of sight across from your lovely seating area should be as pretty as your seating area.

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3. That raisins are better in cereal than yogurt covered raisins.

4. That magazines aimed at “women of style and substance” aren’t necessarily for twenty-somethings.

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Oh well, I’m going to read it anyway, then perhaps gift it to other fabulous, stylish, women of substance that I know. (aka, my mom.)

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Then I learned…

1. That even though it looks nice, 36°F isn’t quite balmy enough to finish breakfast outside

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2. That the life of sight across from your lovely seating area should be as pretty as your seating area.

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3. That raisins are better in cereal than yogurt covered raisins.

4. That magazines aimed at women of style and substance aren’t necessarily for twenty-somethings.

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Oh well, I’m going to read it anyway, then perhaps gift it to other fabulous, stylish, women of substance that I know. (aka, my mom.)

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And, I’m back…

Breakfast wrap - 2 eggs, 1 slice sharp cheddar, tortilla; oranges, sweet peppers

Is it just me, or is WordPress being weird? I usually include photos in my posts and this one *STARTED* fine, but then I went back to edit the draft of this post and the photo exploded.  The preview looks fine, but, I dunno…I’m typing right now and all I can see is the orange and it’s super zoomed in and… let’s just say it doesn’t look like an orange at the moment @_@;

Ahem.

I’ve been away a lot lately because, well, life happens–I needed to be there for family and so I was.  This involved going back to Canada for a funeral service just a week and a half after we had come home from Canada, but it was well worth the journey, just to gain some closure, healing, and time with family.

 

I’m at a point, where I want to get back to what I originally intended with this blog–cooking, working out, getting healthy.

Today, I’m spring cleaning around the apartment and I’ll be cooking up a few things for this week’s dinners.  I’ve got my grocery list planned out and the meal plans, too.  Now it’s just a matter of executing on the plan:

Monday: Chorizo Chicken Jambalaya

Tuesday: Taco Chicken Bowls

Wednesday: Wild Rice Soup – made from a mix, I’ll be adding fresh mushrooms and serving with a salad and a crusty bread.

Thursday: Spaghetti – nothing fancy, just browned beef, pasta, and sauce

Friday: Grilled Cheese & Tomato Soup

Saturday: Skillet Gnocchi w/ Chard and White Beans - we’ve tried this one before, and it was terrible.  Mostly, Jeff says, because “melted spatula” wasn’t supposed to be part of the recipe.

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Feelings and Free Things

The (guided) physical therapy certainly didn’t last long, did it?  Seems like I get a “first…” post and then it pitters off like it never existed.  It’s like posting about it jinxes it.  Jody called me on Friday to let me know that apparently policies had changed and she wouldn’t be able to handle my training any more.  She said that she’s still open to talking with me about nutrition, though.  She is someone who has recovered from disordered eating, so I think she has an interest in my patterns and potentially helping me with that too.

Lately, I’ve been feeling really off.  During lunch last week, my work-friend asked how I was doing, and I said that I just didn’t feel like myself–and that was enough to make my eyes well up with tears.  So then I’m apologizing and scrubbing at my face, and explaining I didn’t know where the emotion came from, and her eyes are welling up and she’s panicking “don’t cry! You’ll make me cry!”

So I talked to her a little about some of the things that have been stressing me out, and even though it was mighty embarrassing, I’m glad I did, because her reply was priceless.

Never apologize for the feelings that you have.

That was really helpful, and it prompted me to post on my weightloss group to see if anyone had any experience with disordered eating/coping.  One of the girls, Christy, said this:

 I think it’s really important to dig in and really confront your emotions with a compassionate heart and allow yourself to feel them completely, and know that it’s okay. It’s amazing how therapeutic it can be to have a loud, messy sob fest! The key is just allowing yourself, completely free of judgement, to feel everything. Even if part of you is saying you shouldn’t feel what you’re feeling, just tell that part to shut up because whatever you feel is legitimate. It doesn’t mean you have to let that feeling dictate your actions, but you need to let yourself feel it. Are you jealous? Pissed off? Lonely? Scared? Doubting? Self-pitiful? All valid!!

That’s definitely a route I’m trying.

Tonight, Jeff was simultaneously the best and the worst.  I’m a dum dum who decided to pour marinade on my pulled pork, thinking it was bbq sauce.  He burst out laughing, “I’m Megan, and I don’t read the bottle,” meanwhile I’m staring at my plate in mourning. Once he realized I was bummed, he switched to reassurance mode “don’t worry, it’ll be good, I promise.”  Then, as if to make good on his promise, he put the marinade on his own pulled pork sandwich, too.

Today on Facebook, the Guthrie Theater announced that they were giving away free tickets to go see Othello.  I thought for sure it was an April Fool’s prank, (look at the date, after all!) but my co-worker scored a pair so I picked up the phone and called immediately.  Let’s just say I’m going to go to a play tonight for free ;)

I don’t know if I’ll actually *like* the play or not, but you can’t argue with free, can you?

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First day of physical therapy

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The day was hectic. By the time I sat down for lunch, I had only 5 minutes to eat. (thanks for the tortellini, Mom!!) I took 8 minutes anyway, then dashed off to my next meeting. The rest of the afternoon flew by until it was time to clock out and head to training.
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I met with Jody. We started with resistance bands and really targeted the scapular muscles. I was collapsing my frame by the end of the sets and didn’t realize it, so I’m glad she was there.We also used the bands to do a rotating like motion to target the muscles between my shoulders.

We moved into the studio, and did some floor exercises. Trunk twists, guided crunches, pelvic rotations, pelvic rotations with marching motion, bridge, calf raises/flex and point, adductor and abductor exercises with a resistance bands, and kick backs.

I felt the burn, but I feel good, now. Jody said that I’ve got a better foundation than I give myself credit for, and a greater range of motion than she was expecting. I credit iaido for that.
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At this point, I’m glad to be getting started.

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Lunch: 8 minutes flat

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Today was hectic. When I finally say down to lunch, I only had 8 minutes to scarf down some tortellini (thanks, mom!) Before my next meeting.

Hurry up,weekend!

Lunch, tortellini, work, busy, photo, picture, tv, Friday

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