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Motivate me, I want to get myself out of this bed

None of my t-shirts fit and I just kind of raged at my hubby about it.  He tried going the route of “use it as motivation to get better!” and when that didn’t work, he went the route of flattery. “Well, you know I prefer you naked anyway”  XD  It didn’t work completely, so I’m still a bit frustrated about my weight gain over the last year.  

The good news is that my back injury is finally stabilized enough that I’m getting back into working out consistently.  Now there’s nothing to it but to do it.  I just have to keep telling myself that I’ve done it before and I’ll do it again.

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Today I’m grainy, gritty, and tired.  So far I’ve managed to clean litter boxes and pour some coffee.  I’ve got to get to the bank and report my card as compromised and get a new one.  I’m going to try for an all-vegetarian day at work today.  Wish me luck. And water, wish me water.

Posted in College, Counseling, Emotional Eating, Fitness, Food, Life + Living, Overeating, Self-Reflection, Strength Training, Weight Watchers

Hard truths: a brief on why I need to lose weight

Reason one: Because this view is distracting when I’m trying to study:

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Now with problem area highlighted in blue.

Solutions currently in progress:
-iaido
-fitness 19 membership
-conscious eating
-weight loss support group (online)

I just need to keep working on my solutions and the problems will solve themselves.

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What the what, Weight Watchers?

Is it just me, or does eating clean really not jive with Weight Watchers Points Plus?

Most of the recommendations and recipes that I’ve come across call for low fat, reduced fat, low calorie…. chemically processed crap.  Their “cheese slices” melt in the refrigerator.  Or maybe I got a bad batch, I dunno, but I like to eat real food, in lesser quantities.

In other news… I’m still addicted to high fat, high sugar foods.  

Confession: I went to Arby’s the other day… the speaker to take the order was completely pummeled.  That was flag 1 that I didn’t need to be there, but I ordered Mozzarella sticks anyway.  I pulled up to the window and it was 3x more expensive than anticipated–flag 2.  He passed me the cheese sticks and they fell all over… onto the floor boards of my car and everything…. 

The reason I use ‘addicted’ is because that didn’t stop me… I figured I had recently cleaned my car and so the five second rule applied.  

the five second rule applied.

Lowest of the low.  So, I’m staying on Weight Watchers just to make sure that I stay aware of my choices.  Eat real food, just eat less of it. 

 

Posted in College, Life + Living, Menu Planning, Wedding Planning

Happy New Year: Extended Edition

Today’s song is brought to you by the Pandora Pop Fitness station.

This time last year was a time of hardship and growth.  No really–I gained 12 pounds.  But it was also character growth, and so so good.

From there, we went through wedding planning, a wedding, getting a dignosis of ‘hyperthyroidism’ for Tazzerson (our cat), an international reception, helping my brother move, moving ourselves, helping my mom move, planning festivities for my sister’s wedding, and finally–attending her wedding.  In between, I’ve been going to school and my husband has been studying for his certifications, our parents have had to take care of our grandparents as they age and needs change.   We’ve had a ton of just LIFE things happening and when that happens, some things fall by the wayside.  Thankfully, I’ve been able to maintain my weight for the last year–230 on the dot.  But what is the point of maintaining when I’d much rather be working towards my ultimate goal weight?

The “life” things have settled down for the moment.  Now it’s time to get back to the rhythm of working out, planning meals, and eating right.

Today’s plan is to get in a quick work out, clean the house, and do some cooking for the week ahead.  When I buy breakfast at work, it’s a sausage, egg, and cheese sandwich (english muffin).  There’s no reason why I can’t make something similar at home and make some healthy substitutions.  When I buy lunch at work, it’s usually when they’ve got gyros in from a local restaurant 🙂 I can do that, too.

Now that life has settled down a bit, I expect to be posting much more often.  Thanks for sticking with me!

Posted in Life + Living, Menu Planning, Uncategorized, Wedding Planning

Are you bored?

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AH! I still sort of have ‘wedding brain.’  I go home at night and still feel like we should be planning a wedding.  If you’re interested in mini updates and food photos then you can subscribe to follow me at http://megsfitnessphototracker.wordpress.com.  I upload pics of my daily eats and lately I’ve been updating on the day’s goings on too.  I still intend to update here, but I feel like I owe you better content and right now I just don’t have it.  You deserve better!! So, if you’d like to wait for better, I’ll have it soonish.  If you’d like to settle for good-enough, check out my alt blog where I just update from my phone and call it good.

From MegsFitnessPhotoTracker: “I found a sammich in my fridge thus morning and decided it was breakfast. Nom nom nom.. Oh! And my plan of eating when I’m hungry and stopping when I’m full works.. I weighed in at 217 this morning. I’m pretty sure it was a fluke.”
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Fail to Plan, Plan to Fail

The age old adage of ‘fail to plan, plan to fail’ has been used as the mantra for weight management (loss/gain/maintenance) for as long as I’ve been trying to manage my weight.  What I have noticed, however, is that the more I plan, the more I fail.  How terrible is that?  Maybe I just rebel against authority, even if it’s my own.

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Take, for example, the K.I.S.S. blog entry wherein I wrote about these easy workouts that I could and would do every single day.  Ever since that entry–I haven’t worked out once.

Yes, the workouts are taped RIGHT TO THE FRONT DOOR.  They are literally in my face whenever I go to leave the apartment and whenever I pass into the kitchen, and yet, I’ve turned a blind eye and ignored them completely.

The fitdecks and resistance bands, too, are gathering dust.

This is a pattern that I have noted more than once about myself.  I start off with the best of intentions and I plan and plan and plan… but that’s as far as my motivation gets me.  I finish up with the last detail of the diabolical weight loss scheme and my motivation goes (with a thick Minnesota accent) “Oof-da! That there is enough work–you betcha!” and my motivation just clocks out.

2013-01-09_12-38-38_427My latest endeavor is to participate in this 8 week book-learning course (through work, of course) that details healthy eating habits for all (not just people looking to lose weight, but really the right way to eat as a regular ol’ human being).  I like to think I know it all, but the pre-test showed that I’ve got a lot to learn.  I’m hoping that the structure of that class will help to keep my mind on fitness and that having a variety of OPTIONS available to be active and healthy will help me to succeed.

One of the healthy-minded girls that I interact with on Facebook posted a pin from pinterest that showed using post-it notes to set daily goals with daily rewards, so I decided to give it a whirl:

2013-01-10_11-39-17_593I liked the idea so much, actually, that I put the template in a frame with the post-it notes on top.  In case it’s too difficult to read, the first goal is to “Clean up/off desk at work: wall, surface, files.”  The reward for completing this task is “new batteries for my butterfly

The second goal is to “Set limits for gaming: pre-requisites, curfew.”  The reward for this task is a new set of batteries for my kitchen scale (CR2032).

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The last goal is to “Check out/join community center.”  Because of the area that I’m in, and the agreements that the localities have with each other, I can actually join any of three community centers in my area for about $30/month.  The one I was looking at last night would let both Jeff and I join for $50/month for both of us.  They have access to a 24 yard (I think?) lap pool, sauna, whirlpool, tennis courts, cardio machines, weight machines, free weights, and group classes including aqua zumba–whaaat??  I really want to check that out this weekend.  The reward for checking out the community center is a walk outside with Jeff.  D’awwe 🙂  He’s already agreed to be a part of my reward system hehe.

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Posted in Counseling, Emotional Eating, Fitness, Life + Living, Self-Reflection

Third Visit – and Dysthymia

The exact cause of dysthymia is unknown. It tends to run in families. Dysthymia occurs more often in women than in men and affects up to 5% of the general population.

The main symptom of dysthymia is a low, dark, or sad mood on most days for at least 2 years. In children and adolescents, the mood can be irritable instead of depressed and may last for at least 1 year.

In addition, two or more of the following symptoms will be present almost all of the time that the person has dysthymia:

  • Feelings of hopelessness
  • Too little or too much sleep
  • Low energy or fatigue
  • Low self-esteem
  • Poor appetite or overeating
  • Poor concentration

People with dysthymia will often take a negative or discouraging view of themselves, their future, other people, and life events. Problems often seem more difficult to solve. (http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001916/)

I had the third visit with the counselor the other day and after telling her of the stresses, trouble concentrating at work, et al, she asked me to consider dysthymia.  I think that’s why I haven’t updated.  It’s overwhelming to consider that there might actually be something physical causing my trouble sleeping, trouble focusing, poor self-esteem, and over-eating.

I guess the light that I’m trying to consider is that if there’s a cause, there can be a cure.  But that’s something I’m still looking into.  In the mean time, I’ve re-joined sparkpeople and posted a blog about my “ah-ha” moment over there.  Since I just re-joined that site, I’m not really diving into the “Hey! I have issues..” thing, but I told of looking through our engagement pictures and completely ruining the experience for myself by being so self-critical.  So, first things first – the 3 W goals for the week – Water, Wake, Walk.  64 oz of water, 1 get-up-and-go song/day, and go for 1 walk/day.

The last time I got to good it was through sleep, nutrition, and exercise.  Maybe it can work again ❤

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Orange Chicken! Oh wait.. that’s pizza (a reset button entry)

Have you ever had those math questions that talk about how one train leaves the station going 60mph and the other leaves a different station going the opposite direction going at 40mph and where do they meet?

It’s a question that always seemed to make me panic–they don’t meet they freaking CRASH! zomg! Someone press the big red button!

Yeah, I always got that question wrong on the test.. hm. I guess my math teacher didn’t appreciate good old fashioned hysterics (define hysteria: unmanageable emotional excesses).

Those trains are like my life at the moment.  Stress is the 60 mph train and Health is the 40 mph train and it seems like whenever health gets off to a good start, stress comes right along and knocks it off track.  For me, and probably a lot of people, stress is toxic.  I am currently stressing out about:

So, the way that I see it… That stress train is coming on fast and threatening to derail my healthy train.  Instead of making orange chicken last night, we ordered pizza.  Again.  And I was all for it, not a care in the world.  I haven’t actually worked out since I moved.  I am supposed to be on my way to the fitness center right now but I couldn’t drag myself out the door yet–this baggage was too heavy:

Weight: 225

BMI: unknown. unhealthy.

Bicep: 15.75″

Ribs: 39″

Belly: 42.5″

Hip (at the joint): 48″

Hip (widest point): 50″

Thigh: 29″

 

The plan is simple–I’m leaving the baggage at the station to get lost 🙂  Today my goal is to get back to the gym.  At least an hour working out. I will drink 64 or more  ounces of water.  I will eat spinach with dinner and have fruits and veggies as snacks.  This little 40mph healthy train may be going slower than the chaotic stress train, but you know what?  It’s more sturdy, and health will conquer stress and push it out of the way.