Motivate me, I want to get myself out of this bed

None of my t-shirts fit and I just kind of raged at my hubby about it.  He tried going the route of “use it as motivation to get better!” and when that didn’t work, he went the route of flattery. “Well, you know I prefer you naked anyway”  XD  It didn’t work completely, so I’m still a bit frustrated about my weight gain over the last year.  

The good news is that my back injury is finally stabilized enough that I’m getting back into working out consistently.  Now there’s nothing to it but to do it.  I just have to keep telling myself that I’ve done it before and I’ll do it again.

 

Today I’m grainy, gritty, and tired.  So far I’ve managed to clean litter boxes and pour some coffee.  I’ve got to get to the bank and report my card as compromised and get a new one.  I’m going to try for an all-vegetarian day at work today.  Wish me luck. And water, wish me water.

Third Visit – and Dysthymia

The exact cause of dysthymia is unknown. It tends to run in families. Dysthymia occurs more often in women than in men and affects up to 5% of the general population.

The main symptom of dysthymia is a low, dark, or sad mood on most days for at least 2 years. In children and adolescents, the mood can be irritable instead of depressed and may last for at least 1 year.

In addition, two or more of the following symptoms will be present almost all of the time that the person has dysthymia:

• Feelings of hopelessness
• Too little or too much sleep
• Low energy or fatigue
• Low self-esteem
• Poor appetite or overeating
• Poor concentration

People with dysthymia will often take a negative or discouraging view of themselves, their future, other people, and life events. Problems often seem more difficult to solve. (http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001916/)

I had the third visit with the counselor the other day and after telling her of the stresses, trouble concentrating at work, et al, she asked me to consider dysthymia.  I think that’s why I haven’t updated.  It’s overwhelming to consider that there might actually be something physical causing my trouble sleeping, trouble focusing, poor self-esteem, and over-eating.

I guess the light that I’m trying to consider is that if there’s a cause, there can be a cure.  But that’s something I’m still looking into.  In the mean time, I’ve re-joined sparkpeople and posted a blog about my “ah-ha” moment over there.  Since I just re-joined that site, I’m not really diving into the “Hey! I have issues..” thing, but I told of looking through our engagement pictures and completely ruining the experience for myself by being so self-critical.  So, first things first – the 3 W goals for the week – Water, Wake, Walk.  64 oz of water, 1 get-up-and-go song/day, and go for 1 walk/day.

The last time I got to good it was through sleep, nutrition, and exercise.  Maybe it can work again ❤

What I’m Digging Wednesday

And one thing I’m not digging:

I was startled to look up and see this spider on my wall last night.  I found out by searching the interwebz (namely, bugguide.net) that this ‘beaut is apparently a “Parson’s Spider.”  Once I read a little bit more about it, it was less er.. scary? Repulsive?  Apparently this little guy hunts by crawling on the ground and overpowering its prey.  What’s more is that its prey is usually other spiders.  The best part is that they do not spin webs to catch their food–so no messy cob webs to deal with. 🙂  I’m glad I didn’t squash him!  Now if only he’ll stay out of sight, out of mind…