Posted in Counseling, Emotional Eating, Fitness, Life + Living, Overeating

Feelings and Free Things

The (guided) physical therapy certainly didn’t last long, did it?  Seems like I get a “first…” post and then it pitters off like it never existed.  It’s like posting about it jinxes it.  Jody called me on Friday to let me know that apparently policies had changed and she wouldn’t be able to handle my training any more.  She said that she’s still open to talking with me about nutrition, though.  She is someone who has recovered from disordered eating, so I think she has an interest in my patterns and potentially helping me with that too.

Lately, I’ve been feeling really off.  During lunch last week, my work-friend asked how I was doing, and I said that I just didn’t feel like myself–and that was enough to make my eyes well up with tears.  So then I’m apologizing and scrubbing at my face, and explaining I didn’t know where the emotion came from, and her eyes are welling up and she’s panicking “don’t cry! You’ll make me cry!”

So I talked to her a little about some of the things that have been stressing me out, and even though it was mighty embarrassing, I’m glad I did, because her reply was priceless.

Never apologize for the feelings that you have.

That was really helpful, and it prompted me to post on my weightloss group to see if anyone had any experience with disordered eating/coping.  One of the girls, Christy, said this:

 I think it’s really important to dig in and really confront your emotions with a compassionate heart and allow yourself to feel them completely, and know that it’s okay. It’s amazing how therapeutic it can be to have a loud, messy sob fest! The key is just allowing yourself, completely free of judgement, to feel everything. Even if part of you is saying you shouldn’t feel what you’re feeling, just tell that part to shut up because whatever you feel is legitimate. It doesn’t mean you have to let that feeling dictate your actions, but you need to let yourself feel it. Are you jealous? Pissed off? Lonely? Scared? Doubting? Self-pitiful? All valid!!

That’s definitely a route I’m trying.

Tonight, Jeff was simultaneously the best and the worst.  I’m a dum dum who decided to pour marinade on my pulled pork, thinking it was bbq sauce.  He burst out laughing, “I’m Megan, and I don’t read the bottle,” meanwhile I’m staring at my plate in mourning. Once he realized I was bummed, he switched to reassurance mode “don’t worry, it’ll be good, I promise.”  Then, as if to make good on his promise, he put the marinade on his own pulled pork sandwich, too.

Today on Facebook, the Guthrie Theater announced that they were giving away free tickets to go see Othello.  I thought for sure it was an April Fool’s prank, (look at the date, after all!) but my co-worker scored a pair so I picked up the phone and called immediately.  Let’s just say I’m going to go to a play tonight for free 😉

I don’t know if I’ll actually *like* the play or not, but you can’t argue with free, can you?

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“Can you ever just be ‘whelmed’?”

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Toastmasters competition

United Way events planning committee at work

United Way closing ceremonies planning committee at work

Sister’s wedding (MOH)

College

OT at work due to how busy we are lately

Mid-year reviews.

 

I would like to just be whelmed… because right now, I’m a bit overwhelmed.

Posted in Counseling

Nope, still in a slump

“Settle down it’ll all be clear. Don’t pay no mind to the demons they fill you with fear. Trouble it might drag you down, if you get lost you can always be found. Just know you’re not alone, ’cause I’m gonna make this place your home…”

I’m working on it. ❤

Posted in BTHR, Self-Reflection

Monday Motivation: Reflections on quotes from BTHR

First and foremost, I’m going to give a big ole shout out to Cassie at Backtoherroots.com for posting today’s Monday Motivation. She captures great quotes and posts them right when I need to be reading them. Today’s quote was as follows: 

Bloom Where You Are Planted
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Bloom where you are planted.

This is a very good proverb to keep in mind.  You cannot always control the lot that life has given you but you can seek the sun and bloom anyway.  I didn’t know it at the time, but I really took this to heart over the last year in my career.  I was getting stagnant in my current position and yearned for change.  The positions I was applying for, though, were ones that I was simply not qualified for yet–I didn’t have the experience I needed to do the job.  So what did I do?  Well.. first I pouted for a little bit.. then I sulked.. and then I realized that I was only making things worse and I picked myself up and dusted my hands and said “You know what?  If I don’t have enough experience to get out of this position, then I am going to be the BEST person in this position–and I will raise my hand when the opportunity presents itself and I will go GET the experience I need to move on.”  And once I changed my attitude, it really worked.  That brings me to another (great and timely) Motivation Monday that Cassie posted: 

If you don't like something, change it.
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If you don’t like something – change it.  If you can’t change it – change your attitude.  ~Maya Angelou

Word.  I have spent the last year and more changing my attitude–being more humble at work, more open to feedback, more willing to bend, to change, to grow.  I have sought opportunities and volunteered where I had no experience.  I kept telling myself “This is the year.” and I’ve made it come true!  I started a new position today at work.  It’s a promotion with a raise, and it’s a new challenge to pursue.  It’s exciting and challenging and just… !!! I can’t believe it’s true.  I’m still training for it, but I keep hearing that I have such a good base.  They are impressed with how fast that we are getting through the materials because I already know quite a bit of the functions.  I would shine my nails on the shoulder of my shirt at this point if it weren’t for all that becoming humble business I’ve been practicing… So yes.  I have bloomed where I have been planted.

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