Posted in Anti-Inflammation, Fitness, Food, Menu Planning, New Food

3..2..1..Paleo!

We’re getting back into Paleo eating, now that we’re in the new place.  We’ve done pretty well in the last week, but tonight, we’re gearing up for the Squeaky Clean Paleo plan featured in Practical Paleo by Diane Sanfilippo. Note: this is NOT a sponsored post.

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Pumpkin cranberry muffins, pumpkin pancakes, spaghetti squash bolognese, ribs with green beans, pineapple teriyaki chicken, home made cranberry sauce

Call me crazy, but I feel like eating healthy should taste good.  The recipes that I’ve tried from this book hit that mark. Jeff is excited about cooking again, too, but not about the dishes…because cooking every meal requires lots of dishes.

Tonight I’ve dirtied up a few mixing bowls, some knives, pans, spoons, cutting boards, and towels cooking up some meals for tonight and tomorrow.  I’ve got stuffed cabbage rolls with a cranberry tomato sauce in the oven, along with a “swirly crustless quiche” made with carrots, zucchini, and about a dozen eggs.  I’ll be making mustard glazed chicken thighs shortly, and tomorrow we’ll have a braised beef dinner.

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Our fridge is fully stocked with yummy foods and I’m ready for this adventure.

What is your favorite thing to make in the fall? Share your favorite crafts and recipes, below.

Posted in Counseling, Emotional Eating, Fitness, Life + Living, Overeating

Feelings and Free Things

The (guided) physical therapy certainly didn’t last long, did it?  Seems like I get a “first…” post and then it pitters off like it never existed.  It’s like posting about it jinxes it.  Jody called me on Friday to let me know that apparently policies had changed and she wouldn’t be able to handle my training any more.  She said that she’s still open to talking with me about nutrition, though.  She is someone who has recovered from disordered eating, so I think she has an interest in my patterns and potentially helping me with that too.

Lately, I’ve been feeling really off.  During lunch last week, my work-friend asked how I was doing, and I said that I just didn’t feel like myself–and that was enough to make my eyes well up with tears.  So then I’m apologizing and scrubbing at my face, and explaining I didn’t know where the emotion came from, and her eyes are welling up and she’s panicking “don’t cry! You’ll make me cry!”

So I talked to her a little about some of the things that have been stressing me out, and even though it was mighty embarrassing, I’m glad I did, because her reply was priceless.

Never apologize for the feelings that you have.

That was really helpful, and it prompted me to post on my weightloss group to see if anyone had any experience with disordered eating/coping.  One of the girls, Christy, said this:

 I think it’s really important to dig in and really confront your emotions with a compassionate heart and allow yourself to feel them completely, and know that it’s okay. It’s amazing how therapeutic it can be to have a loud, messy sob fest! The key is just allowing yourself, completely free of judgement, to feel everything. Even if part of you is saying you shouldn’t feel what you’re feeling, just tell that part to shut up because whatever you feel is legitimate. It doesn’t mean you have to let that feeling dictate your actions, but you need to let yourself feel it. Are you jealous? Pissed off? Lonely? Scared? Doubting? Self-pitiful? All valid!!

That’s definitely a route I’m trying.

Tonight, Jeff was simultaneously the best and the worst.  I’m a dum dum who decided to pour marinade on my pulled pork, thinking it was bbq sauce.  He burst out laughing, “I’m Megan, and I don’t read the bottle,” meanwhile I’m staring at my plate in mourning. Once he realized I was bummed, he switched to reassurance mode “don’t worry, it’ll be good, I promise.”  Then, as if to make good on his promise, he put the marinade on his own pulled pork sandwich, too.

Today on Facebook, the Guthrie Theater announced that they were giving away free tickets to go see Othello.  I thought for sure it was an April Fool’s prank, (look at the date, after all!) but my co-worker scored a pair so I picked up the phone and called immediately.  Let’s just say I’m going to go to a play tonight for free 😉

I don’t know if I’ll actually *like* the play or not, but you can’t argue with free, can you?

Posted in Emotional Eating, Life + Living, Self-Reflection

Willpower: A Limited Commodity

I have learned that people only have a very limited supply of willpower.  As an example, I find that I have just enough willpower (on average) to do one of the following:

a) Work Out
b) Eat Right
c) Save Money

The problem comes when I want to do all of the above but the will power just isn’t there to impose hidden-option-d.

I cannot be the only one with this problem and so I have started to take a look at how I can possibly get a booster pack for my will power.  I’ve taken a look at my patterns and habits and it comes as no surprise that I am an emotional eater–more often than not I’ve been a stress eater.  Crunchy (stress relieving) potato chips, comforting tater tots, soothing hamburgers, calming ice cream… Rather than enjoying foods for their taste or their nutritional benefit I am seeking them to assauge whatever emotion that I just don’t want to deal with anymore.

As any emotional eater knows, though, the feeling of stress-relief, comfort, peace only lasts as long as the food does, and so it’s an endless cycle.

I have kind of unofficially officially stopped going to Weight Watchers.  That lasted a while, eh?  I know it’s not supposed to be about the leader but sitting around singing kumbaya and giving applause to those who have figured out how to do it right.  I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again now (and probably still not follow through with it) I think that in order for me to lose weight, I’m going to need counseling, not a personal trainer.  Or maybe both.

A lot of the reason why I haven’t followed up on the counseling idea is because of the cost and the commitment and the fear that the person I find to talk to will be just as hokey and unhelpful as my leader ended up being at WW.  I don’t want someone to give me doe-eyes while tilting their head and asking me how I feel.  Doesn’t that feel just as awkward to them as it does to me?  It makes my skin crawl just thinking about it.

So, I’ve branched out.  For about an hour while I was waiting for Jeff at the book store I perused the self-help section.  I found 50 Ways to Soothe Yourself Without Food.  It’s from the same folks who brought you Eating Mindfully, which is probably a title I should check out as well.

I know you’ve noticed a slow-down in the frequency of blogging, and I’ve definitely noticed a slow-down in the frequency of my fitness, shopping, and cooking.  I’m just not on it right now and eating a bowl of Cheesy Munchies is easier than admitting that I just need some help.  The book is due back at the library next month.  In the mean time, I’ve checked out Food: The Good Girl’s Drug | How to Stop Using Food to Control Your Feelings. I hope it helps.