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Turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall behind you

Turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall behind you.  – Maori Proverb

As is the norm for me these days, I got the news via Facebook.  My friend Kayla lashed out in anger and confusion

Kayla Marie - Google Chrome_2012-12-15_19-17-06Senseless shootings?  What?  It was like deja vu.  Facebook was telling me about senseless murders committed for unknown reasons.  The thing that really broke my heart, though, was that it was children.  Kids who don’t even know who they are.  They haven’t been around long enough to hurt anyone and yet they were taken out in an act of senseless violence.

The leader at the place where I work just moved here from Connecticut.  They lived not ten minutes from where this happened, and they left countless comrades back home.  We, as a business, are waiting to hear how many of our colleagues are impacted by this tragedy.   But last night was also our holiday party.  We were there with our co-workers, friends, family.  It was supposed to be a night of revelry and celebration.  So our leader, having only seen us a few times, offered words of comfort.  They lifted the burden of guilt from our shoulders to say that we will remember, and we will wait for more news tomorrow, but for tonight it is okay to have fun.  I nearly cried.  I didn’t realize how badly I needed to hear that… How dare I attempt to enjoy myself when the nation is mourning?  When I got home, I tried to tell myself that it was not okay to mourn because they weren’t my friends, family, or neighbors.  But my heart ached, and Jeff could see it so he wrapped his arms around me and I cried into his shoulder as if they were my friends, my neighbors, my family.  It is such a senseless loss and my heart breaks for it.

I don’t want to remember the shooter. I don’t want to delve into the how’s or why’s.  Instead, I would rather remember those who were lost.  I would rather support those who survived.  I would rather dwell on positives than be torn apart by negatives.  “Turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall away behind you.”

One of my friends on Facebook posted a plea to join them in sending support to Sandy Hook Elementary School.  I am going to participate in this call to action.  If you would like to join me, please send your good thoughts, wishes, cards, drawings, notes, or flowers to:

Sandy Hook Elementary School
12 Dickenson Drive
Sandy Hook, CT 06482

I dedicate this post to the fallen:

Charlotte Bacon, 6
Daniel Barden, 7
Olivia Engel, 6
Josephine Gay, 7
Ana M. Marquez-Greene, 6
Dylan Hockley, 6
Madeleine F. Hsu, 6
Catherine V. Hubbard, 6
Chase Kowalski, 7
Jesse Lewis, 6
James Mattioli, 6
Grace McDonnell, 7
Emilie Parker, 6
Jack Pinto, 6
Noah Pozner, 6
Caroline Previdi, 6
Jessica Rekos, 6
Avielle Richman, 6
Benjamin Wheeler, 6
Allison N. Wyatt, 6

Mary Sherlach, 56
Victoria Soto, 27
Anne Marie Murphy, 52
Lauren Rousseau, 30
Dawn Hochsprung, 47
Rachel Davino, 29


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2 thoughts on “Turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall behind you

  1. I thnk I cried like 10 different times yesterday. Tis is a beautiful post. I cried again when I reas all those names. I have a niece and nephew 6 and 7… I can’t even imagine what those parents are feeling.. 23 people younger than I am…. Thanks for sharing that address.

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